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life goes on, exei liakades  zestoules, barbeque me filous, irthe to prwto alboum panini me aftokolita tou noah, voltes stous giro lofous, taïzoume tis papies sto diplano potamaki, kalimerisame psarades…

Pigame sto perifimo «Namur en mai» opou oli i poli tou namur metamorfwnete se ena apistefto terastio tsirko me zogler na pezoun mpales ston dromo, klooun na kikloforoun anamesa mas, xilopodarous na mas prospernane, spectacle me marionetes kai magous se kathe plateia, carrousel pantou… loukanika kai mpires apeires…

ta pedia trexoun, peftoun, gelane, malwnoun, den koimounte,

To prwï episkeftikame to katapliktiko prwin anthrakwrixeio «bois du cazier» to opoio exei metamorfwthei se katapliktiko mouseio me polla ktiria kai kipous to opoio organwne  breakfast gia olous me peripato meta stosu giro lofous … ta pedia eixane paletes me xrwmatata opoia ki eprepe na vroune stin fisi… omarfa pragmata…

Twra molis girisame apo fagopoti me kalous filous,kai etoimazomaste gia to part two stis 6h30 me allous filous…

kai eimai kala. Mia xara.

Kai kathe 30 deftera skeftomai gia 2 deftera ton basili kai sinexizw.

Kai pote pote me pianei mia adikia, ena parapono, pote pote to filosofw…

paw na xepagwsw to kreas gia tha psisoume ta podaria mas eidalws!! 🙂

efiges

efiges. Kalo taxidi sou.

periergo poso iremi niwthw…poses fires den epesa katw sto xali me klamata skeftomeni aftin akrivws tin stigmi.

Otan tha xtipisei to tilefwno kai tha mathw pws efiges.

kai simera… afisa to kinito epitides katw, dne to pira dipla mou. Eimouna sigouri pws den tha ximerwname ston idio kosmo. Ekana mistiria oneira me enudreia vrwmika pou spazane kai xrisopsara pou spartarousane pantou ki egw na trexw na ta piasw prin psofisoun…

mataios kopos e?

ena mistirio pragma i antidrasi mou… totilefwno xtipise stis 7 para 5 to prwi. Poli prwi gia kouventoula.

den xreiastike kan na to sikwsw ixera apo prin. Koitaxa to kinito, eixa lavei minima ap tin Xrusa stis 00:57 to prwi.

ok…

Me poli iremia zitisa ap tin mama tin praktiki meria, poio anthpowleio, pia diefthinsi, ti na grapsei panw…

etrexe ena dakri monima alla xwris spasmous kai ligmous. isixa. Ena dakri dexia, ena aristera… vazw kafe, trexei, pinw kafe, trexei, to skoupizw, ntinw ton noah, trexei, etoimazw tis fetoules tou gia to sxoleio, to skoupizw me tin xartopetseta, perna alli gia na valw sto kalathaki tou, ntinomai, mpenoume sto aftokinito, trexei pali…ton afinw sto sxoleio, girizw spiti, kathomai, pezw «to xeirokrotima»….

18 xronia pisw.

triti likeiou. Kathe prwti tou mina, to zitousame ap ton heat fm, stin ekpompi tou Nikou tou Xaida tin prwini… ki elege o nikos «kalimera stin maria, tin anna, ton stefano, ton vasili, tin xrusa, tin maxi, tin dimitra, tin iwanna, ton giani… kai kalo mina»

kathe prwti tou mina, gia ena xrono, kalimerizomastan m afto…

kapoioi to thimounte, kapioi den to thimounte pia.

I anna to thimate, ki egw…

niwthw pws einai iremos. Eimai sigouri pws einai kala. Xwris ponous kai dispnoies….

elpizw na itan evgenis mazi sou otan irthe na se parei. Opws itheles ki opws isoun ki esi.

kriwnw, tremw, ponaei to kefali mou kai den vlepw kala… alla xerw ena pragma…

ekana oti pernouse ap to xeri mou, imoun mazi sou all the way, eipame oooola ta s’agapaw kai se skeftomai pou mporousame na poume… den afisame tipota ekremi… and this is priceless…

se filw twra. kali xekourasi kai ta xanaleme outws i allws!

simera

xipnisa ligo pio iremi simera.

Apofasisa kai an stamatisw na koitazw to kinito sta matia kathe 2 lepta…

mexri kai gia shopping piga…

arxizw na iremw kai na vgenw ligo pio ap exw… oxi poli, molis xtipisei sms mou kovonte ta podia ap tin riza, alla to palevw arketa kala…

aggelos – exaggelos

Polu duskoles meres, duskoles wres, terastia thlipsi, sproxnw ta ntouvaria kai den len na kounithoun…

O Basilias fevgei, pernaei ta teleftea tou 24wra (wro?) me apisteftous ponous, enan karkino pou exaplwthike pantou, viea xespasmata exetias twn ogwn ston egefalo, narkwmenos ap tis morfines gia na min pona, me kwmatwdes ipnous giati den exei pia kamia poiotita zwis, xwris arthrwsi, xwris diavgeia…

I Xrisa mou lege simera oti pige tin mikri prin 2-3 meres stin kliniki, eixan oi dio tous mia kali stigmi, anoixe ta prasina matia tou, tin eide, xamogelasane, agaliastikane ki istera eipe «arxizw na vlepw skies, th’arxisw na petaw mpoukalia, vgaltin exw fovamai na min tin xtipisw katalathos kai fige ki esi…»

Poso siginitiko… den orizei pia tipota, oute to swma oute tis antidraseis tou ki omws…to patriko to enstikto ta nikise ola gia liga deftera…

na swsei tin kori tou… na min tin xtipisei otan den orizei tipota, na min ton dei na min orizei tipota…

prin ligo sto tilefwno, ton akouga… tooooso xamila, narkwmeno ap ta pafsipona, na mou leei «eimai kala! edw irtha mono gia exetaseis… mou pane oti efigan ola ap to pagreas, efigan ki ap ton egefalo…mono sto sikwti exei meinei…pare me se kana dio meres tha xw ki alles analiseis! …kie gw s’agapaw, na prosexeis…»

kai elega… «nai!!? doxa ton Theo! bravo…»

bravo… 😦

Oi giatroi lene oti einai thema imerwn, wrwn…i kardia tou einai se poli poli poli kali katastasi exou kai tiraniete… den to palevei o idios pia. Den exei epilogi… i kardia tou den leei na stamatisei na isixasei… ki etsi ipoferei…

kai skeftomai… poso adiki einai i telika izwi? poso viaii, poso omorfi, poso sintomi…poso epipono einai na kratas to xeri agapimenou mexri na xepsixisei… kai na perimeneis san to koraki apo panw tou na figei…gia na isixasei kai gia na klapseis kie si ena telefteo klama ki oxi afto to kathimerino to ligo-ligo… to psixofthoro…

Basili mou, file mou, oso zw tha se skeftomai.

T’onoma sou pote den tha svisei ap to kinito mou…oute ta minimata sou, oute ta mail sou…oute i fwni sou… na xeres poso me ponas…